I am sorry, but I need to rant a little.  I have noticed that some friends just do not invite me out anymore.  By ‘out’ I mean the normal going out, pubs and bars, gigs etc.  I have cancer, yes, but that does not mean my social life has to be over.  There are days when I feel ill and I do not want to go out, however the days when I feel ‘normal’ out number the days when I feel rubbish, so actually I have loads of ‘chances’ to go out.  I am trying to live as normal life as possible; people treating me differently does not help.  I do not drink alcohol at the moment as my liver has enough to deal with as it is, but that does not mean, other people cannot drink.  It does not bother me if they do, and if they did, I would not judge them.  I still want to go out even though I do not drink.  Yes, my neutrophils are low at times, but not all the time.  If the last chemo cycle is anything to go by, my neutrophils were only down for a couple of days at around ‘day 7’, then quickly picked up back to normal at around ‘day 10, 11’ post chemo.  So, I am not neutropenic all the time, and can go out in the public.  I would generally like people to treat me just like they did pre-cancer, please.