It’s Sunday, and another chemo ahead tomorrow.  I have to say, the novelty of chemo has definitely worn out!  I’m almost dreading it tomorrow.  Mostly, because I have not been feeling great this week.  Normally, I have a good third week post chemo, when I feel ‘normal’ with normal energy levels.  It is a week when I almost forget that I have cancer.  Not this week though.  I have been feeling so low in energy, and generally a bit ill.  I’m highly disappointed, and slightly worried how I am going to feel after they have given me the ‘poisons’ tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I am going to quiz my medical team about how many more cycles will I need.  I have not asked the question before, because I do realise it is difficult to say at the beginning of the treatment.  But, I would like to have an idea now.  I want to see light at the end of the tunnel, and I want to know when will I be able to fly again, as I miss Finland terribly.  I have been so homesick for Finland all week, and I cannot seem to be able to shake the feeling off no matter how much I try.  Also, I am sick of feeling sick.  I am grateful, that I have a cancer that is curable, providing I will go through the horrid chemo, but sometimes I wish the treatment was over and done with…

On a positive note, we have had an Indian summer here in London, cloudless sky, sun shining and temperatures rising up to 21 degrees during the day.  I went to an picnic in the park yesterday, wearing a summer top, jeans and sandals!