I have slept so much in the last two nights!  Well, compared to the previous two weeks anyway.  I could hardly get out of bed today.  I slept until about 4pm!  I felt like my body needed it.  Obviously, now I cannot sleep, and it is nearly 2am…

I have been feeling quite unwell since the egg harvesting, tired and slightly feverish.  Maybe it is the antibiotics that are making me feel like that.  I am a bit annoyed, as it is my last weekend before chemo, and there was a lot I wanted to do, but I have spent most of the Saturday sleeping. 

I have managed to squeeze in some fun activities this weekend though.  Suzie and I went to the cinema tonight, to watch the latest Harry Potter movie, the Half Blood Prince. 

And, last night I made an effort, put some (extra) nice clothes on, and Helena, my housemate did my make up.  She made my eyes look amazing!  I met Minna in town, and we went to the Waterstones in Piccadilly to listen to some live reading and to Kenny from King Creosote play his tunes.  It was also Bart’s, my friend’s birthday celebrations, so afterwards we went to the pub.  It was lovely to see my friends from Domino Records, and to meet some new friends.  Everyone thought I looked amazing, and thought I was doing so well.  Clare, my friend was telling me about her grandfather who had the same cancer that I have when he was in his 80s, and he got completely cured!  

Some people were asking how I am doing ‘emotionally’.  I can talk about my cancer endlessly, but when it comes to my emotions, I do not what to say.  It is mostly because I do not know how I feel about it all.  So much has happened in such a short period of time, that I do not know even where to begin.  Few people have said, that people with cancer are in ‘auto pilot’ during the treatment, and then have the shock afterwards, which is when they end up dealing with the emotional side of things.  We will see how I will do.  I am doing my best to deal with this, both physically and mentally.

I loved the eye make up Helena did for me on Friday.

My raised chest due to the cancer. I took this on Sat.

Can you see the raised chest?